Aliyah Newman
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Welcome in but I don’t know my way around.
To be frank I will
make it up as I go
so you have the guidance you so
desperately wish for
How many closets does one structure need,
given residents, square units, interest in fashion, location on hemisphere,
and maybe some more obscure factors less important
I don’t know how many closets
and bedrooms might signify number
of residents
or expected/desired residents or
guests
or couples who adhere to more traditional expressions of cohabitation
and bathrooms
different rooms may mean no walls at all or nice half walls, good for leaning
and looking
I didn’t mean bathrooms but I may
The center of the earth
is nine small things on one larger thing
worms eat the lava and turn it into love
many animals are invisible due to size or magic ability
and in here if a bomb goes off
we won’t hear it
or smell or see it.
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come closer to me tree thank you tree now touch my face please tree almost there tree a little
higher please tree yes thank you tree thank you tree thank you tree
touch my hand tree
thank you all trees i love you all trees
i see high and undering and Im undering smiling and suspended branches pulled down by
weightless ropes and leaves turn to one
and this one now still i’ve never seen it so still so unmoving and inside i filled with the opposite
of trees which is cement
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3
farther away from before or sums collected
three four plastic bristles mess it up better than me always but i don’t often see the fog in dark
bright green down above these
so the walk is more tolerable and i refuse to play future conversations in my head anymore
and i don’t run out fast it was slow and stupid and i am calmer than any
only buzzing left pressure turns louder when walls cannot move
barely stretching is NOT enough and trying to quit is lovely
and quitting is lovely
and waiting is not how you prepare or distract or complete amnesia or the other work for
forgetting
collecting drops where i sit and leaving air dryer drier dreyer than before
no creative words no unique words no special words no new words no descriptive words no
surprising words no provocative words no lovely words i forgot why i do it
to never show anyone ever
to stay never ever again
so stop ever always form now on
to join and ring every time now and forever
to no stop and never again
to always forever and forever
reaching and something another bone that’s not mine sticks thru where my bones might be if
they were real and categorizable and sticks into the soft and gory and out into sterile and filthy
air and i can stand straighter than before, it’s behind my belly button or under depending onv
which angle you
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I won’t say it but i ask when was it not
I beg when will it be
Sacrifice is not shapable or near nor any pricklier than current wounds
God of all things still let’s honor shapeless moons and throws without doubt
launching to be launched heavily